Jun 18, 2008

Different Can Be Good

You all know that I pretty much can't sit still for too long. And I mentioned to a couple of people already that it's weird for me to just go to church on Sundays and not do anything. No music leading, no Sunday School translating, no communion preparing... I just go, put my nametag on (HAHA, jokes on me! go ahead. picture coming), sit, sing, listen, pray, have coffee, go to Sunday School and go home. Going to a Camp and not being in charge felt pretty weird. For the past few years I've always been in charge of something. I had a pretty good idea about what was going on and I was usually even able to help other people who didn't know what was going on. Being here I haven't really been able to be myself... you know what I mean? Please, don't get me wrong I'm not complaining. What I'm trying to say is that different can be really good sometimes. So many times when I came to church at 8:55am on Sunday at home I wished I could just go and sit there and worship... I got tired of always doing something. Here comes the point of this post - being here and going to CMPC is like a reward for me. Seems like God gave me what I really wanted for so long. I go to church on Sunday with a clear mind, free from thoughts and stress (which I often bring on myself when it doesn't need to be there) about things that "need to be done". And at the same time I feel like I'm still doing things. I work with the youth (loving it so far!). Can't wait to see what the rest of the summer will be like.


Ande Truman said...

Funny you should say this, cause I can totally relate. After leading worship and much more for 3 years at Chestnut Ridge and stressing myself out I had to stop, but now it's weird to sit and not do anything. Yeah, I got you. I'm glad you're able to just sit and worship 'with a clear mind' like you say.

Ande Truman said...

Forgot to mention I like that picture you took!

Petra said...

ah, danke!